not clowns

i don't like the idea of being a clown, constantly masquerading behind a mask that differs from my true self.
i've discovered the world is such.
politics is such.

[to win]
in order to achieve an aim, to win the acceptance of others, to elevate one's status, for one’s vested interest, to prove oneself, to guise one’s weaknesses.

[we fake]
we smile, we joke, we try to be ‘politically correct’, we act, we preach, but don’t practice.


fuck, stop that act!


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i'm just feeling quite tired and jaded. maybe we all need to stop what we're doing and search our hearts. stop trying to prove. stop trying to impress.

i am not exempted.

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i don't want to be a self-righteous bastard, so i will not go around boasting that i'm a Christian. don't get me wrong. there's a difference between boasting Christ, boasting about His goodness in me, a Christian and boasting for self-gratification. i'm not ashamed of the gospel of Christ. more so, i'm not ashamed of knowing Jesus. i think precisely because i love Him, that i don't want to misrepresent Him.

'you hypocrite, first take the plank out of your eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother's eye.'
-Luke 6: 42